Since I was a kid everything had become a game
It seemed almost as if everyone thought the same
I want so badly to leave my home
To be on my own, to be free of the cold
What more could I hope for besides a loving home?
Anything that could help me free myself was taken
Even my trust had been mistaken
I realize now that no matter what I thought
Everyone who hurt me had to be dropped
In the end, it wasn’t about my wants
I wanted the safety I felt in my room at night
Away from all types of human life
My music plays, soothing my doubts
Erasing all that has made me dark
It was something that I didn’t want to admit
But I had to face the seriousness of it
My home was not a good one, nor had it ever been
They guilt tripped me again and again
How could I bare that again?
Instead I smile in their faces, refusing to trade places
My trust broken on more than one occasion
I would offer them no word of remorse or sympathy
That became the seriousness inside of me
Sara Thornton 